Erin was not only a beautiful person on the inside, with a huge, kind heart and a wonderful sense of humor, she was also a beautiful person on the outside. She was adorable and exuded a warm, welcoming beauty. Every time I looked at her I wondered how I got so lucky. The truth is, though, that no matter how often I told her how gorgeous she was to me, she never believed it. She suffered from body-image issues and had very low self-esteem. Here’s an album with some simple pictures of Erin which I think show her classic, true beauty. You can download any of the photos, just hover over the image for the download button on PC or find it in the share menu on mobile.
Remembering the life of Erin Danhi
I love this section. I feel like the Erin she saw was never the amazing person we saw from the outside. And that sucks because she was amazing inside and out.
You’re so right, Jen, thank you. So beautiful in so many ways and she just couldn’t see it. She tortured herself for so long in so many ways right up until the end, when she committed the final act of self-hate. It’s very hard to contemplate the disparity between how amazing she was and how hard she was on herself. I spent 12 years trying to tell her how beautiful she was and how much she meant to me and how worthy of love she was, but I didn’t do a good enough job. I know I tried, but I didn’t try hard enough and not in the right ways… and I just wasn’t equipped to be what she needed. In the end, I understand that it never would have been enough… your love for someone can never make a good enough substitute for their love for themselves. The love just never really makes it through fully because they don’t believe they deserve it and therefore don’t really accept it.
I know you loved her and I know you did your best, as well. Thank you for that and thank you for holding onto that love.
My only regret is never taking the time to come see her in person. I always thought she’d be there when I got around to it.
She regretted never heading to MI to see y’all, too. We talked about it a bunch of times. Like you said, always thought there would be time